Before I sleep...

One more thing! I have been listening to this silent on repeat for the last several nights before I go to sleep. I have really been trying to focus on the words because I think they are excellent and very representative of the spot that I am in right now. For those of you who dislike cheesy LDS music... Don't read this post. You have been warned.

It is by Jesse CLARK Funk. Go figure, she's an original Clark too. Hmmm. Anyway, here it is!

Again

I’ve wrestled with demons and darkness.
I’ve wrestled with what has been lost.
I carry this crushing weight on my shoulders
And try not to think of the cost.

It’s more than a single decision.
It’s giving up part of myself.
It’s something I simply can’t do on my own
So I’m pleading with You for Your help.

Chorus-
Again and again
I’ve asked myself why.
I don’t think that I have any tears left to cry.
My soul is so tired and I’m longing for rest.
I’m giving my all and I’m doing my best.
It hurts to move on from the place I am in.

But You understand where I’ve been
And You reassure me it’s time to start over
Again.

I’m finally ready to listen.
I’m finally ready to hear,
Struggling to get a place You can reach me,
Where peace can speak louder than fear.

I can’t see the end of the story.
There’s no way to know how it ends.
For now I let go and I trust You to lead me
And show my heart where to begin.

Repeat Chorus

All of the pain and confusion I’m going through
I’m turning it over to You,
Willing to trust it’s the right thing to do.

Repeat Chorus

Anyhow, it's beautiful and I love it. That's all.